Waiting on a referral

Now that we are LID as of 3/25 we are just waiting.  Waiting to see the face of a precious little girl whom God has chosen to place in our family.  Waiting to see the face of our daughter.  Waiting to show our boys the face of their sister.  Waiting to know how old she is, what she looks like, when her birthday is, what her special need is, where in China she is currently living.  Waiting.... 

A little history

Before our three biological children were born we had two miscarriages.  I was devastated.  I thought we would never have children.  I wanted a baby more than anything and it seemed at the time that I never got anything I really wanted so I just knew that we couldn't have children.  We waited a few years and decided to try again.  Three months passed before we finally got the news that we were expecting.  Three months seems like nothing when I think about couples who wait for a year or more to get this news, but at that time three months seemed like an eternity.

Now we wait again.  Just like before, we have no idea how long we will wait.  We are told to be prepared for a 3-6 month wait from LID to referral.  That stinks!  I know that it really isn't that long, but to me it feels exactly like waiting to find out you are expecting a baby.  The shared list comes out once a month.  This is a list of files of children that China releases to all of the adoption agencies.  Our agency will receive files for some families while other families will wait their turn.  God has really blessed me with patience throughout this journey but I think I am losing my patience now!  We know she is in China waiting for us, but we don't know anything else about her.  I want to know her desperately.